so many things

in the course of 4 weeks, so many things happened.

CIBTC D'09 is over.

the 3 weeks of nrc, atc, investiture, over.

new friends made, new skills acquired.

CIBTC really changed me.

CIBTC = FUN

26th dec

area chalet.

i must say the officers really have two ( probably more ) faces. haha.

in front of cadets, and behind them.

they're sooooooooo different.

area 4 really rocks.

4 for life! haha

ya basically that's about all.

looking forward to 31st dec, COUNTDOWN WITH ALPHA!!!

7th Jan BBQ w/ ALPHA too. haha

yea so cya.

you really made my day :) thanks.

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再见，我的朋友。

再见，我的朋友。

考试的压力，堆积如山的作业。

这一切似乎让我们忘了自己在为谁而忙。

这一切似乎让我们忘了学校也有朋友。

一群互不相识的陌生人到朋友，是缘分。

一群普通朋友到好友，是你。

我的朋友，四年就这样转眼间过了。

宝贵的时间啊，若我们不把握，无情的时间就会从我们手中溜走，好似流水从沙粒中的细缝往下流。

我的朋友，让我们一块停下脚步，回首，回味过去。

走过这四年的记忆之路，风吹雨打、雨过天晴。

这四年的路，虽短，但精彩。

尽管路有多么难走，我未曾害怕过。这都是因为你，我的朋友。

你总会在我的身旁，陪伴着我。

我的朋友，你还记得吗？

我们总会聊到深夜，还不肯入眠。

我们总会在操场上一起玩乐。

我们总会一起用餐。

我们总会一同走到地铁站。

这些往事，我未曾忘记。但往事只能回味。

我的朋友，四年来，我们都成长了许多。

我的朋友，四年来，你也给了我不少美好的记忆。

我的朋友，四年来，你让我体会到了一段难得的友情，一段我将会刻在心灵深处的友情，一段我永远、永远也不会忘记的友情。

谢谢你，我的朋友。

学校到地铁站那段路，那段记忆路，虽短，但精彩。我多么希望，朋友你，可以陪我一直走下去。但，天下无不散之宴席。

四年过了，我们也得分头，各走各的。

但，希望你也和我一样，珍惜我们之间的友情。

再见了，我的朋友。

朋友一生一起走，朋友不曾孤单过。

伤心事

此刻的天空，蓝得很年轻。

白云，仿佛一堆棉花浮在水面上，飘荡着。

蜜蜂正勤快地采蜜，白兔则蹦蹦跳跳，在草丛里捉迷藏。

就在这一片朝气蓬勃的阳光里，就在那一片碧绿如玉的草地上，有个黑影，像是地上聚然冒出的一朵蘑菇，凝着不动。

是名女生。

她蹲在那儿，深深地垂着头，长长的头发将脸部严严密密地遮住。她的双肩不绝地耸动。她在哭泣。那种深切沉重的悲伤，使空气也顿时凝结成块。

so near.

Are examinations really testing our proficiency in a certain area or just plain memory work.

Everyday, students drag their feet to school reluctantly.

However, there's nothing they can do about it. They are powerless.

Students never had rights. They often hear preaching about how far education can get them, but the truth is, education can only get you this ---------- far.

Then in class, teachers try to make lessons interesting to get the attention of students.

Learning is now being imposed on students. Few are truly enthusiastic about studies.

The sweltering heat from the afternoon sun blast the students as they battle to keep their eyes open and minds clear.

Suddenly, all the students start to listen attentively as if a surge of energy flowed through every single one of them.

Oh, it's the clock. 5 mins to the end of school.

The bell goes off and the students race out of the classroom.

The tables and chairs are in a mess. Litter seen everywhere.

The lights are switched off and everything dimmed.

The fans slowed down, coming to a halt eventually. Everything is still.

The cleaner empties the dustbin and dusts off the dirt on the tables.

The doors are locked and the classroom is ready for yet another hectic school day.

the last lap

it's just a month more to Os and everyone is stressed out.

i guess this is normal for secondary four students.

but yea.. come to think of it

just a month more and that's it.

secondary education, over.

time really flies.

now, i really got to concentrate. no more fooling around.

anyway, today we're back to lessons. script checks are over.

school was as usual and the usual few of us lunched at S11.

after that i went to buy joi's new album :D YAY.

yea. 《回到最初》。the songs are pretty nice. listening to it now.

i'm gonna go do my work soon.

off i go.

bowling

english oral was today in the morning.

11.00 they said on the schedule

but 11.15 they started it.

then luckily i was second in line. so yea

it was not too bad. then 2.30 BOWLING

yeah... training my back out which is still inconsistent.

first game first two frames were like this - / - / lol wasted

last game was good yay.

more consistent

double at the 8th and 9th frame. leh chuan missed one strike, or our score will be like +/- 1

similar scores for like until 8th frame. lol. final score. 144, not that it's very good, but i'm proud of it. improvement on my back out. leh chuan got 135. he ended it with a double X.

so yea. my boring life. 

ciao. X.X

dumb? retarded? childish?

ah yes. long time since i pen my thoughts here.

recently a few people have started playing maple again

in the world Eridanus

so i followed suit

yea i am trying out a pirate and today

i finally got to understand the frustration i once experienced.

dumbasses, childish behaviour

i saw this lv 5x cleric and he had many skills so i merely advised him to pump into one useful skill first before maxing out the others.

what happened? he defamed me. wth. my first reaction was... okayyy

and i let it be thinking it could have been someone who just err.... press wrongly.

but i was wrong. he logged out came in with another character with a similar name.

it was so obvious it was the same user. and he came with the same motive. wth..

i went -.-. i ran. i don't know why but i ran.

then he chased me

then i hid in the cash shop

came out, he was there

so i went back in

out again

phew... he's gone... what a day....

JaeJoongSin has just dropped 'i'm not telling you my ign' level of fame. 

err...... oh what a day.

she gave a smile and disappeared.

i was still trying to comprehend what just happened.

then another character JaeJoongWar turned up.

my first thought. freak this kiddo.

quit game *click*

i went on my sin a while and was still amused by the damage he dealt ^^

then i was like what the hell

seriously, not that i am taking the game so damn seriously

not that i am sore over my negative fame.

but these kids. wth? they can't even listen to a piece of advice?

okay let's just say they dont listen. they dont like that idea.

do they have to take action against that person?

WHAT THE BLOODY HELL SHIT IS GOING THROUGH THESE KIDDOS' BRAINS. OH WAIT I THINK THEY ARE BRAINLESS, TOTALLY RETARDED, CHILDISH, AND ONLY KNOWS HOW TO SPOIL MY WONDERFUL DAY WHEN IT WAS JUST ABOUT TO END. OH FREAK. I WISHED I COULD HAVE USED A STRONGER TERM. 

thinking about such childish actions make my blood boil.

can't they just play the game peacefully without creating displeasure or best still build their happiness on other's suffering. okay i ain't suffering LOL it's just two fame. it doesn't hurt. but the thought of the stupid bloody dumb, mentally challenged kid in front of the other side of the screen really makes me want to give him a knuckle sandwich. 

so currently, on my blacklist 

MAlien
MKrauser
JaeJoongSin

JaeJoongWar

to the person: if you are freaking reading this piece of freaking post, i ADVISE you to wake up your bloody idea before you get into serious trouble or you can wait for some gangsters to knock some sense into your head after you offend them. BLOODY FAGGOT! go and find other ways or channels to vent your frustration rather than passing it on to others. immature. BILLIONS OF BLUE BLISTERING BARNACLES. TEN THOUSANDS THUNDERING TYPHOONS. okay. done. if you managed to read this whole load without swearing. well, i guess you are mature but i am sure you are damn pissed now. haha. judging from your actions, you can't be older than a ten year old if not you are seriously mentally challenged/disabled. whatever. pfft. hey brainless freak! look here. you actually looked here? really brainless...... i hope you dont piss more people because i dont think all of them will be as civilised as me to ONLY write a blog post instead of stalking you and BAM. count the litres of tomato ketchup flowing out of your head.

to the rest: good night! =)

i think i have split personality...... -.-

npap 2009

npap 2009 was held yesterday, at the hta.

this year was the 50th anniversary so some things were changed.

went with jackson, joe and met up with other people. 

after that the 3 of us ( j,j,rj ) we went to walk about and jackson knows damn lot of people sia...

saw farith sir, ming jun sir, kee kwoon sir, syahmi sir and a lot more.

this year the marching in of support contingents is so much cooler.

the CCs march out first then the support cont march from the side split and form up.

but then this year, they invited A LOT of vips..... so in the end, only the vips, officers and the participants in first uniform are allowed to go in. so i cant go in T_T

heck. yea so we had dinner, played a damn lame game, then the loser have to suck the jelly and eat it in 5 secs..... 

after which, we waited for the goh boys to be dismisesd then we took the npap bus back to cat high.

then had a little snack with jackson and joe then went home.

not a lot of pics this year... how sad.

memories

it's so sad... times really flies.

i've just read some of my friends' blogs.

posts they made in secondary one and two

how i wish i could revisit those days, laughter and fun

sigh...

and now sec 4

O lvl

homework, stress

good thing we are stepping down from cca.

but still there is still one problem, and i've been thinking a lot about it.

a lot since last year.

i find that my friendship is a little strained, probably much worse, i not know.

but i can sense that. the tone, the way they react.

i can tell they just want to shrug me off.

i'm worried, i'm sad 

i hope my doubts are due to over-suspicion. that's it

but i guess things arent that simple. they have never been.

so i will just have to wait.

time will tell everything.

those friends i could talk to at night, sharing secrets, and sharing our views on life

i find them avoiding me now.

i am still finding where the problem lies.

i know it's me but where and what

if only time could heal all wounds.

i wouldnt want to graduate without having friends.

honestly, i'm scared.

my secondary school life started well but took a drastic turn in sec 3.

please... if you know where my problem is, tell me.

i dont wanna lose any friends, or worse, make any enemies.

you may think it's a small matter,

but it has been bothering me greatly

i cant concentrate on anything.

i just feel so .... okay i cant describe that feeling but i hope you know.

it seriously has been bothering me, i mean it.

乒乓圆

haha... this show is awesome.

when i reach home, it was 9pm on my clock.

i threw down my bag and on the TV.

then my tv screwed up....

couldn't switch it on, on off on off on off then finally got it to work

watch until 2nd commercial break then screwed again.

luckily i got it to work and didnt miss out much.

ha. read the i周刊 until the 18th episode. woots so many exciting things yet to unfold.

Ma Li'an and Akira-san is joining the New Century Club. lol i will stop here

dont wanna be a spoiler =)

oh and today napfa.

didnt really expect my results but i was a wee bit pissed at that mere 7cm.

but ah wells, i am satisfied =D

okay now off to do my english proposal then LALALAND! 

omg. i gonna miss my 12.00 flight to lalaland!!!

okay, i am off.

bowling fever

friday, good friday, yesterday.

yupps. it was kinda good. haha as the name suggests.

in the morning reached farrer park mrt at 9 plus while my bro went to the civil service club to bowl first.

saw xavier there reading his thick book. then he told me his mum is the assistant manager of the civil service club. OMG

lol zx came shortly after, followed by chek wei, the trios - jackson, yong kang and sebas and lc and lastly edison.

so we made our way to the bowling centre. 10a.m.

w.t.h.

waited one hour lol.

planetbowl is so cool i just love that place, so cosy and the rates are cheap.

tried out my bro's bowling ball, the pin navy and a high - performance ball, the hammer black widow bite bpr. but the particle ball wasn't that good for the dry planet bowl lane....

the thumbhole and fingerholes did fit my hand nicely. cool.

so yea. it was definitely DIFFERENT from house ball. the feeling was just..... WOOTS

first game i was still learning from him, and i got err... 116....

second game i was still learning and i won him though... 134

he kept fencing in the second game and missing spares.... so yea.

3rd and 4th game? it sucks. i just didnt have the skill and stamina.

i have to improve on my follow through, back swing, approach and release.

occ lanes are gonna be medium-heavy oily. guess the ebonite black widow bite bpr will do the job.

so today....nothing much. stoned a lot, procastinated a lot.

very disappointed. i am wasting so much time.

oh and my bro went bowling today again and is going tmr again.

for trainings, his competition is coming up.. ah wells. good luck! he scored a 188 today. haha quick nice.

seriously i want a bowling ball, brunswick sidewinder or rattler. sidewinder is a particle ball and particle balls die fast... i cant get a ball with a high hook potential if my follow through isn't good yet... well, such stuff takes time.

my bro's pin navy is fine. ^^

okay tmr have to wake up early to go the temple and pray. then i have lessons before coming home to do hmwk. 

overall performance today. 1 on a scale of 1 to 10.

did nothing much

nights.

wth

wth lar...

it's friday...

after cca, and i am shagged.

just wanna relax and play a bit

but... NO

i'm being threatened....

"you want to play you play, dont study"

wth? cant i play a bit on friday and study on the other days?

it's not even like i will play and not study right.

i guess all p_ _ _ _ _ s are like that. they want their children to be muggers

and do what they think is good. i have a brain. i can think.

i know studying is good. but information overload kills.

so in general. every p _ _ _ _ _ wants their child to lead a dull life in books.

i really don't get people. we'll die one day.whatever we have now is just temporary.

it'll be gone, all so soon. 

anyway, i can't even touch my computer now when studying......

yea not even TOUCH. so FREAK!

WHAT THE HELL LAR.........

Grand Theft Auto

haha, a long time after my gta sa crashed....

i took time to download it again. ha so i finished downloading it about a few days back

gta sa is cool but GTA IV is COOLER.

damn..... the graphic is like so damn realistic and it makes you go oh-wow-i-want-that

haha so currently downloading gta IV while TRYING to look at some essays and equations wrote in foreign language.

ah well

going to 'study' (if i can)

cyazzz

oh, did i mention the chinese paper was easy?

no one else except me would understand my feelings.

they just think i dont give a shit about the whole world and that i dont appreciate whatever they do.

but how do they know? dont tell me about that telepathy shit.

I AM ME. I HAVE MY MIND, MY THINKING. there is NO SUCH THING AS MIND READING.

they DONT understand me

they CANT read my thoughts

but they think they can

i just cannot use words to express what i am going through, what i have experienced.

no one will understand. because no one else can be me.

they FREAKING DO THINGS AND SAY IT's FOR my good.

okay

i know

but what do you want me to do?

put an ad in mediacorp to say THANK YOU I LOVE YOU?

BLOODY HELL.

i get blasted for NOT KNOWING HOW TO EXPRESS MY THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS.

WHAT I GREAT LIFE I HAVE RIGHT.

oh and they say i just dont feel repentful, or never change or even accuse me.

if i feel repentful, i wont be able to say sorry IMMEDIATELY.

and when i dont do that, they think i will NEVER DO IT.

i never tell them i am repentful, they think I NEVER AM.

WHAT A PACK OF LIES.

when they start blasting, everything i do will be argued with a reason that seems REASONABLE to them.

i cant do anything.

oh wait, if i dont they will whack me with their speech again.

so what do i do?

looks like someone needs to write a book : HOW TO BE A GOOD SON, FOR DUMMIES.

i need that book.

I FREAKING CANNOT EXPRESS MYSELF PROPERLY

AND THIS IS A MISTAKE? A CRIME?

WHY DO THEY HAVE TO JUST MARK ME FOR LIFE WITH A SINGLE MISTAKE I COMMIT.

and then he goes again, THEY CARE FOR YOU, AND YOU STILL DONT UNDERSTAND.

again, does he understand me? does he knows what is going through my mind.

I AM SO DAMN FREAKING SURE THE ANSWER IS 

NO!

com'on if you are so good in reading minds, go be a magician.

even a magician cant read minds, those are optical tricks.

so yea. what makes you so FREAKING sure that i am oblivious to the care and love they shower me with? 

what makes you think i DONT understand?

YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND THIS IN YOUR LIFE.

I WOULD LOVE TO LIVE YOUR LIFE IF I COULD.

a life full of excitements and ACHIEVEMENTS.

oh there you go again. YOU ARE LAZY DAMN IT.

oh so i guess every person in this world who is lazy IS A CRIMINAL?

YOU GUYS BASICALLY JUST TREAT LAZY SHITBAGS AS CRIMINALS.

so it's my fault that i am not smart?

my fault i can't do well in studies?

my fault that everything is against me?

NONO, it's not your fault. YOU HAVE to believe in yourself

BULLSHIT!

if belief can take me so far, i would be giving the taking the president's oath now.

A WHOLE LOAD OF CRAP.

i ain't going to believe in anyone now.

i ain't going to like show any emotions.

i guess that's the best way.

being as good as the dead.

just like zombies marching around, programmed to study, study, study

and cry to show appreciation.

then again, 

if this is what you guys want me to be.

i ask you, WHY THE HELL AM I HERE, ON THIS HEARTLESS PLANET.

I'VE GONE THROUGH ENOUGH, DAMN IT.

i really wished i could have used MUCH stronger terms. but i guess there are little children reading this too.

DAMN THE WORLD.

DAMN EVERYONE.

DAMN ME.

friends no more?

i am quite certain of one thing right now.

they don't treat me as a friend.

so i guess i just lost a lot of friends? haha.

all the more i cant wait for Secondary 4 life to be over

and go to JC and make new friends, true friends. 

for now, i shall just go and relax before work haha.

friends or foe?

things have changed.

friends are starting to drift away from me,

and vice versa.

now we may just be strangers

but who knows we may turn to foes.

i fear that day,

and hope it never comes,

but things arent looking that good.

i've wasted too many chances, 

and i dont think i'll be given another.

can we still be friends?

i not know.

the world is dark, and cruel without friends.

that's my world right now.

and i dont know if it'll change.

the cruel truth.

射雕英雄传

wah.. it has been more than two weeks since i blogged, haha....

well, i wasnt in the mood and there wasn't anything exciting about my life..

anyway, as the title says yea Legend of The Condor Heroes will start TODAY

every sunday at 7.30pm on channel U. lol

even though i have watched it twice already, i still look forward to it haha

might watch the whole series again. this version is quite nice haha

so yea... i will go off now

ariel lin ftw!

countdown

there they go again....

what's so happy about a new year...

i haven't finished my homework, damn...

anyway, countdown is really damn dumb.

go there sing songs then LOOK at people play games then 5 4 3 2 1

woots new year and everyone goes home.

stupid right

i find it so freaking stupid.

last day of holidays = end of fun

last day of holidays = start to touch my homework

last day of holidays = start of nightmare

off to do work.