depression?

i just ain't me

i want to be the me in the past

cheerful, friendly, happy-go-lucky

now i am just wearing a mask to make myself look happy

it's tiring

in the past, i enjoyed loads of company

now, i am starting to hate places with many people

in the past, i like daytime

but now, i prefer the night

becoming more mature? no, i dont think so

i just feel that i am becoming more cold towards everything

i started to hate myself and now more things around me

most likely it is due to problems that snowballed

i envy those people who can go overseas, to places where troubles can never find you

to places far away from here

i want to enjoy myself, but how

i want to play and be happy, but how

i just want to be at a place where i can relax, and spend some happy and memorable moments with my loved ones

but now this cant be achieved

and so i prefer to be alone

whenever i hear happy music,

i dont know why but i shut it off

i dont know why i changed so much

and i really wish i knew

for now i just want to relax, and wear a smile on my face everyday, a real smile

not a mask.

towards things happening around me,

i don't really care.

i 

don't 

really

care.

back

okay, i decided to blog and this time round, in english

due to the many complaints about how chinese is hard to read

and i bet majority just clicked the close button when they see chinese

anyway, 14-16nov was camp, nth much

black knights trainings started and it pisses me off

nxt up is annual hike and lots of preparation are needed

and i should be planning city venture right now but i lack brains....

YES, i need moooore brains, the more the merrier.

this holiday is gonna fly past and if i dont plan this holiday, 

i will have loads of troubles planning it

and i am supposed to brush up my chemistry, physics, and mathematics

this holiday but i dont know how i am gonna do so.

anyway, i kinda of just woke up and damn, so late

yea, i guess i have to change my lifestyle a bit

tomorrow is bk training so i gotta get myself prepared

so list of things to do

- Black Knights
- City Venture

- Holiday Homework

- Revision of Physics, Chemistry, Mathematics

- Do my filing

- ???

好累

今天，去打羽毛球。

好久没打了，现在打起来好逊哦。

哎呀，假期那么长，有时间在自己去打。

运动运动一下也好。

现在，好累哦

我先去歇息了

晚安！

经过

今天下午重看了《不能说的秘密》

你们可以说那部戏很旧了，可是好看就再看啊！

好啦，我刚刚才看完一部电影、《经过》。

听电影的名就感觉有点抽象了吧。

可是，每个电影都一定会有一个含义。

只是，这部电影的含义有点难理解，我不太明白。

故事的大纲就是讲述一位在博物院工作的员工遇上一位很古怪的日本人。

那日本人似乎对一幅艺术品非常感兴趣，可那艺术品就刚好没有展出。

那工作人员就尽力地去帮那日本人。最后。。。

我想我已说了很多。

要知道整个故事就自己去看吧。

心动不如行动。

哈哈。

晚安咯！